More perspective....

As I've been home, I have been forced to look at every aspect of my life, every little detail no longer hidden, but put on full display for everyone in my family and myself to see. Some aspects I have liked more than others, but I think I'm finally beginning to understand what it is that makes me truly me. Everything is eternal. I catch myself every now and then thinking "if only I was back at school, I'd be okay again" but the truth is, until I learn how to live like a normal human being without addictions I won't be okay. I just hope I can remember that the next time I have the urge to do something stupid just for the temporary gratification. Thank goodness for a Heavenly Father that loves us enough to make us take responsibility for our mistakes. As hard as it makes my life right now, I cannot deny the existence of a God who knows who we all are and who loves us beyond our understanding. I almost wish I could sometimes, it would be so much easier to just give in. But I cannot turn my back on what I know to be true....